By Alanna Flax-Clark
When I was 13, I woke up one morning and
could not move or walk on my right foot. I had always been healthy, so
this came as a shock. I had a number of consults and progression of
symptoms throughout my entire body to the point of being bedridden, in excruciating
pain, unable to be touched, and my limbs developed contractures while being
swollen and blue/purple in color. I was finally diagnosed with a chronic
neurological disease associated with dysregulation of the central nervous
system and autonomic nervous system that results in multiple functional loss in
the bones, muscles, nerves, skin, and blood vessels. I spent the next few years
in and out of different hospitals, undergoing daily therapies, invasive
treatments, and surgeries. With the support of my family, friends, and
teachers, I was able to keep up with my schoolwork and returned to high school
my senior year. I managed to graduate on time and went away to college in
Memphis and then to graduate school in Boston.
I worked hard in college and double
majored in Biology and Psychology, as I was influenced so much by my health and
how the two were intertwined. Because of my personal experience staying in the
hospital for extended periods and my interactions with all the kids and
families I met, I spent much time volunteering my time doing art projects with
the kids at St. Jude Children's Research Hospital in Memphis. I also worked
alongside the division chief of Radiation Oncology in the clinic and doing
research on the effects of radiation on cognition, attention, and memory in
children with brain tumors. While I was in Memphis things were not perfect with
my health, but I was enjoying my life and did not let anything stop me.
After graduating I moved to Boston to
pursue my graduate studies where I obtained my M.S.Ed., specializing in severe
special needs and my teaching credential. I worked full time with kids with
various disabilities ranging from bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, Down
Syndrome, Autism, and much more. I was enjoying life and couldn't be
happier. But starting around late 2007, my health declined as my
immune system got very weak. Finally, I became extremely ill with a terrible
infection and ended up suddenly in the ER with a spiking fever, my blood pressure
dangerously low and heart rate dangerously high. My immune system had
attacked my nerves, spreading quickly so I was exhibiting signs of
quadriplegia.
After years of working so hard with my
recovery in my teens and resuming a more “normal” life, I was once more
struggling and in a place of much frustration. Physically, it seemed like
I would never gain my independence. I was not progressing with my rehab and was
only getting more fragile. Again, I wanted the life that all my friends
had in their 20’s. I knew something had to change.
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Alanna on Zotti, her trainer's horse. Photo by Patricia Perez |
I am now a Grade II para-dressage rider
who’s training for the 2018 World Equestrian Games and the 2020 Paralympics
with my Lusitano gelding, Real Erbeo. Dressage is a competitive equestrian
sport where you are required to perform a sequence of pre-determined movements
with your horse. It is sometimes referred to as “horse ballet.” Para-dressage
is currently the only equestrian discipline in the Paralympic Games and was
introduced in 1996. As para-dressage riders, we are able to show and compete
alongside our peers, no matter our physical disabilities.
Many might think the word “para” in
para-equestrian or para-dressage may mean paralyzed. However, para-equestrians
are made up of people of all sorts of disabilities. “Para” literally means
parallel and as riders we go through the same exact training, rules, and
regulations as any other person would. “Para” refers to the sport of dressage,
so that we are able to show and compete alongside our peers no matter our
physical disabilities. This is one of
the reasons why I love this sport! When I’m on my horse, no one should be able
to recognize that I have any sort of disability limiting my capabilities. I
need to be performing at the same level as my able bodied peers and have a
horse that is just as capable of performing all the same movements. This pushes
me to train just as hard as anyone else, every single day.
Alanna training on Zotti |
There are so many ways to get started in
this sport to test it out and see if it is something that interests you.
Para-dressage is not the most well known sport, but often going to your local
therapeutic riding center is a great way to start with riding lessons in a
safe, structured environment.
Additionally, the U.S. Para Equestrian Association is a non-profit that
provides support and guidance to riders. From there you can learn about local
competitions, clinics, and ways to connect with other riders. It is true that any of the equestrian sports
can be more costly to get involved with; however, the para dressage community
is extremely supportive. There are many ways to make it affordable through
grants, leasing horses, and fundraising. As with most things, if you truly have
the passion and drive, I believe there’s always a way to make it work.
You never know what can happen in life,
how quickly things can change. Many think I am crazy for getting on a horse
after all I’ve been through, but they’ve given me back my life and spirit. Being on my horse was somewhere that I have
always felt free. The equestrian sports allowed
me not only to survive, but thrive. I’ve connected with so many horses and
people who have looked past my disability.
The self- confidence I built up through this sport and community is
invaluable.
I am who I am today not in spite of
my disabilities, but because of them. I’ve had my own unique
challenges, my own strengths and talents that I’ve nurtured, and my own
weaknesses and disability that I’ve had to overcome. Riding for me is a
way to test my ability and push past my physical and mental limitations. I have found my passion, and I know I will follow
through with it with the help of my amazing family, friends, and a team of
people at the barn who have supported me along the way!
Website: http://www.alannaflax-clark.com
Gofundme: https://www.gofundme.com/paradressage
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/aflaxclark/
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